Woke Me Up Inside – 10. MY LAST BREATH, WHISPER, and Coherent Mission Statements

All I wanted to say was I love you and I’m not afraid.

It would be nice if I could say it took me this long to write this, the final proper chapter in my series on Fallen and wokeness, because I was spending hours every day agonizing over each word, ensuring that the thesis and evidence provided therein would crystallize this whole ragged mess into something beautiful, singular, and focused.

Nope! Instead I’m inspired by my specific inability to do that.

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Woke Me Up Inside – 9. HELLO and Survival Mechanisms

seriously though this album cover is way better than Evanescence’s actual album covers

Hello: I’m your mind, giving you someone to talk to…

You’ve definitely heard “My Immortal,” but have you listened to “Hello,” otherwise known as the Evanescence piano ballad for real hardcore Evanescence fans? (we call ourselves “Evanesceheads”) (actually even better is the piano/instrumental ballad “Eternal” from Origin, you’ve probably never heard that one, I’m smarter and better than you because I have a functional grasp of Wikipedia and YouTube)

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Woke Me Up Inside – 7. IMAGINARY, aka In Defense of Safe Spaces

“I really hope that bird doesn’t poop on me”

(I lied! Here’s the next essay after all! You’re welcome!)

Where the raindrops as they’re falling tell a story…

Every time I hear “Imaginary” I get a little confused, because it’s never the version of the song I’m expecting to hear.

(content warning: discussion of triggers and psychological harm)

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Woke Me Up Inside – 4. MY IMMORTAL and Posthumous Emotional Labor

Now I’m bound by the life you left behind…

Fun fact: If you’ve listened to Evanescence’s pre-major-label EP Origin, you’ve heard exactly the same studio take for “My Immortal” that you’d heard the first time you listened to Fallen. Against Amy Lee’s wishes, Wind Up Records stuck with that demo recording through the band’s initial album release and the song’s music video; it wasn’t until later, when the song was re-released as a single after Fallen was a hit, that Lee had the clout to insist on a proper re-record.

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Woke Me Up Inside – 3. EVERYBODY’S FOOL and the Beauty Myth

it’s subtle, is what it is. very subtle

Have you no shame; don’t you see me?

I mean this in the nicest way: the music video to “Everybody’s Fool” is so hilariously on the nose that it is a perfect, center-of-target fit for its intended demographic, i.e. teenagers who think that “the man is selling us lies” is the most novel idea they could possibly have had.

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